I've made the decision to make this site my story and Survival Road all about your journey or story. Then, it seems I just stopped doing anything over here... I can't tell you how all over the place I get trying to stay focused!!!
But, this morning I feel like I got the words I have been looking for. The words that sum all the feelings I've been struggling to name these last few weeks in the name of clarity!
But, while they are profound and powerful to me, my experience has been sharing them is like telling someone else about your dream. Saying it out loud diminishes it and you wish you'd kept your mouth shut...
But my commitment to you is to be transparent in my life so you can hopefully be committed to your own life, journey, story, truth.
The actual words are: I want to live. Not as a duh moment. Not as I am afraid to die kind of feeling. But a powerful, I GET IT NOW, kind of feeling that is a knowing.
We'll be talking about this more both here and at survivalroad.net because I finally get it. I can feel that moment everything shifted for me and I want you to feel that too.
It also feels like the moment that FREEDOM GROWS UP. The moment you realize there is nothing you can say, do, or take from me that changes the truth - I want to live.
Not because I think I can live forever in my body, but because I understand the only thing I am to accomplish here in this world is to want to live in it - with no fear of when I will leave it or what happens along the way.
We talk a lot about unconditional love. I think the same is true for unconditional life.
There are no 'conditions' of or in this world that changes the fact - we are life.
So this is my big aha this morning, what is yours?