As you can see, posting has not been something I've done much of for the last few months. I'm having some confusion on what I want this blog to be about. So, when in doubt, do nothing - or at least that has been my motto more often than not these last few years.
Here is my current issue that I hesitate to write about but am totally at a loss with how to handle.
As you can see from my site I am traveling alone, well at least without any other humans.
As a therapist I understand what is happening, as just a girl on the road - I am not so good at handling it.
So here is what happens. When someone posts information and another someone reads it, there is a sense of feeling like you "know" who you are reading about. You may feel a connection and then reach out with an email or text or call.
I love hearing from people but what is hard to explain is that for me I have no connection to the person contacting me. I may get a name, but rarely anything else. You've had a chance to see me, hear me, learn about me, etc - on my end, I got nothing.
It is akward..... especially when there is an assumption that "we" have a connection. It's not personal, remember, I don't even know you. Which is the akward part. I don't know you - and I need to add ALL kinds of people contact me. Including those who have listings on websites that include warning labels....
I love that you say hi. But I also can't just assume you are the guy for me... because this is the truth, I am not who you think I am. Never have been. Never will be. And when any guy - online or in person gets that, they usually get angry with me for not being who they want me to be... so you can see why I hesitate in how I communicate with you.
I feel weird even writing this - but I feel even more uncomfortable just ignoring emails and even more uncomfortable when they get nasty...
Again, I love it when people say hello. I want to hear from you. I just want to share what it is like on my side of the equation.
And who knows, maybe some day I will meet the guy that is for me... okay, BIG maybe... But what I do know as a therapist, getting to really know someone takes time and equal sharing. Not popular in our instant gratification, hooking up, and I want it now society.
Which is one reason I've tried to leave society far behind....
Welcome to my Journey!
I'm inviting you to join me on my journey as I seek to find a new way of being in an old set of systems. It's hard, but worth it!