In the last post I admitted I've not been honest about what all goes on around here. Today is an example of the truth vs. just not posting.
It is cold out. It is cold in. It is supposed to be cold for the next few months. The current storm won't break for the next few days.
This is what it looked like yesterday - as the storm was blowing in. I was having some kind of aha moment when the rainbow came out - I like to think it's a sign when that happens.
This is what it looks like today. There's not a lot of snow, but everything is coated in ice. This is the "peak" high for today. The official temp is 21 degrees. The real temp is well below that. The wind chill is some place I can't consider right now.
Weirdly, for a dog with almost NO hair, he never seems to get cold. I think he has a really high body temperature because he doesn't seem to want to go in and never whines. I always quit before he's ready.
I've had the day to do a lot of thinking because the only safe zone is in front of my two heaters:
Thank you Sherry for yours on the left - LIFE SAVER - literally I am beginning to think.
Here's the honest part. This is one of the first times on this trip I am more than a little concerned about what I am doing. I still wouldn't trade it - but it is cold, I mean really really cold inside. And no, we won't die from it unless maybe the electricity goes out, yea - exactly.
The engine barely turned over from the cold, there is so much ice on the windows I couldn't scrape it off and I don't want to even think about the ice on the roads if we did have to make a run for it.
This is what my outside window looks like. The battle is to keep cold out and heat in - but we're barely keeping up and the "cold" part of the next 24 hours of thiss 72 hour + marathon is still in front of us.
I am only writing this because I've learned friends and family don't read it and I don't want to freak them out!
As my friend shared her misery's with me earlier, whining is just all part of the coping with all of this until it passes. Check with me in May....
That tiny black line in the distance is the cows next door. Clearly they have it a lot worse than me. They don't have shelter or anything to even break the endless wind - translated into wind chill factor - which is brutal!!!
Why I walked the 1/2 mile to get the picture as they then ran away from me.... I don't know. But at some point I committed much like this crazy journey I am on. Challenging the boundaries of my discomfort to see who and what I really am and want can get tiresome. But, it seems I like the challenge, even when it is freakin' stupid on days like today.
See you tomorrow for day 2 of this miserable Cold Challenge I am on!!!
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