A few posts ago I decided to share a bit more honestly, feeling like I had the freedom to do that. But that is not what happened. I don't want to share the details here, but my choice to express my self a little more freely resulted in a set of consequences I am NOT happy about.
Every decision we make has a consequence and that is part of being an adult, accepting both the choice and consequence. But we are creating a world in which we are more afraid of the consequence so we are giving the power of our choice to something or someone outside of us.
The need we tell our self is we want safety and comfort. The price we, as a nation and individual, seem to be willing to pay is our freedom and liberty.
This country was founded because only about 3% of the population wanted liberty more than enslavement. They chose to accept the consequences which for many, was death. But is life, life if it is lived in a prison?
The very essence of my decision to live this life I have embarked on was a spiritual commitment to truth and freedom. But it also involves risk, uncertainty, and more than a fair amount of discomfort.
Is my security as risk? It depends on who or what you believe is creating your life. I choose to not live hostage to my fear or any one else's - no matter what the consequences. That doesn't mean I am not afraid at times. It just means no matter what is happening, I choose to own it and take the next step even if I am afraid.
Having to respond to others fears is exhausting. Having to respond to my own is exhausting. My response has been to just say nothing, get along, and let it go.
But the truth of truth is you don't respond to the fear, you turn the other cheek to it. The more time you focus on the fear the bigger it gets and the more darkness, evil, or those who choose to embody it in this world, win. And that includes each of us.
So, instead of being less honest, I believe it is time to be more honest. Not just about my life, but about what is happening all around us. Not by focusing on what is going wrong, but rather what is going right.
This morning I had the 'aha' that I've been willing to sacrifice LOVE for my Freedom - but that is not what is being asked of me. Freedom is love because love never asks for anything - and especially not to be a hostage to fear.
We choose to love or to fear and then we have to live with the consequences. That is what being a grown up is all about. Sometimes it is very uncomfortable as you will see in the posts below! But more often it is awesome because Freedom is the reason we came into this world - to seek with courage for it and to live in the hope we will find it. And that is as good as any reason as I can find to get up every morning - no matter what!
Okay, I get up for love too!
Welcome to my Journey!
I'm inviting you to join me on my journey as I seek to find a new way of being in an old set of systems. It's hard, but worth it!