Last night I began to watch the movie (from the book) "The Road." I'm only half way through, but the gist is life after nuclear war destroys almost every living thing. It seems a lot more relevant as our world is today sitting on the brink of a third world war that would most likely go nuclear.
It is hard to imagine waking up one day and life as you know it is gone forever.... And that is the problem, it IS hard to imagine.
We are bombarded with images and ideas from movies and video games and books about just this sort of scenario and so we think we are prepared, but trust me, you are not.
Having worked in crisis and trauma I've seen up close you can never prepare for the loss and devastation a war would bring. I've also experienced milder versions of this up close and personally for myself. Losing people I love because of war, disease, and depression. Losing my home, my belongings, and my old status in the world because of corporate greed and the need for profit and power as the almighty god that so many worship.
The question I hear over and over as people call in to radio shows, write in the comments online, and ask in private conversations is "what can I do" as just one person?
It feels too big, as if the answer must be a global, final, and all encompassing solution. It doesn't exist.
We did not arrive to this place in one day because of one person's choice or one specific event. We arrived in this place because of the 1000's of choices we make every day in our thoughts, words, and actions.
The answer does not lie in the rules of the Universe as the world understands them, but rather the answer so many seek lies in the rules of the Universe as that which created the Universe made law.
The answer will not be found any where but in your own thoughts, words, and actions. The answer is you.
And that is the hard truth we all are here to learn.
Every choice. Every decision. Every judgment. Every condemnation. What will it be? One that honors life or destroys it?
I wanted to follow up with my last two posts about my garden and the greening of a very droughted land. My garden is growing - in spite of the fact that the containers are too small, the soil to shallow, and the competition to great in their small space!
You can see my first sunflower and I just picked my first zucchini! I'm not sure about what the carrots are doing? Haven't dug under the dirt to look. My corn is short and doing something....we'll see if an actual cob with corn on it grows!
The bad news about all the rain and abundance is the snakes! Another rattler too close for comfort was here the other day. Not real happy about snakes which I can't see now that the grass and other plants are growing so hi!
But the goats are hard at work doing their job and cutting the grass down! Nature at its best - free food and function without using energy - mine or gas!
See you next time!!!
I have a confession, I've been avoiding sharing this because I'm not entirely comfortable with what I am doing. Mostly, because I don't even know what I am doing!
Here is a picture of my garden:
Okay, what exactly are you looking at?
My tiny container garden next to my tiny box I live in.
So here is what happened. I got to this ranch and had all kinds of grand plans. But, it turns out I'm just not the work horse. And others needed my help. And I needed to earn money. And then I looked at what seed I had with me and thought, what was I thinking? And, well, you get the idea....
My catnip and herbs didn't grow. Buy four of my plants did: corn, carrots, zucchinni, and sunflowers. Um, better than I thought they would - except the carrots.
And life was kinda complicated at the stage when I should have done something about how many plants were growing in each container...
And then it was too late to really do much about it.
And then I thought, what happens when you've got too many plants in a small space?
And while there is some bug damage, things are growing? So, I'm waiting to see what happens.
My first vegetable is growing - a baby zucchinni!
I don't know what will happen with the corn and the sunflowers and the carrots, but time will tell. It's not much of a garden, but it is a start. I've got a big compost bin going out back, well - it might go if I actually attended to it....
But time will tell and I will tell you in time....unless things go bad and then we will have to see!
Welcome to my Journey!
I'm inviting you to join me on my journey as I seek to find a new way of being in an old set of systems. It's hard, but worth it!