One of the things I have found amusing in this process of living very differently and at the same time trying to decide what to share is the irony of my day.
Each morning I spend time in prayer, reflection, and focusing on the big things like love, truth, God, honor, etc. and how to apply them to my life.
But with every big thought there are the little ones that sneak in - what was that sound? Are the mice running around again? Why is Freedom itching his ear, did I miss a tick?
There is this constant shifting back and forth between the abstract and immense with the concrete and specific. My physical world is tiny and in great contrast to my inner world - it is one of the reasons I can live this way. But at the same time I find it funny - sort of - that things like mice, ticks, and the clutter in this tiny space can totally GET TO ME!
Small victories, like getting close enough to take pictures of the cows now I find satisfying at a deep soul level. Appreciating Freedoms patience with the cows is an awesome display of the power in nature vs. us trying to control everything.
Watching cows now walk up to me - especially #123 - gets a big thrill. FInding out the mice are eating the dog food is the opposite of thrilling...
Big and little consume my day and I am not sure what it means other than there are some realities to living on the land, literally, and also we just can't control everything....
I think about yogi's who sit in caves for years at a time having to master not being bugged by bugs. And it also makes sense that the less you have, the less you have to clean, protect, fix, heal, organize, etc..... walking around with just the clothes on your back makes sense at some level - other than smell!
As I write this it occurs to me that maybe the dirt, bugs, etc "ground" me - a word from the psychology days meaning to keep your feet on the earth and the spiritual ways of being lost to the realities of what is.
I fear the farther away from the earth and dirt and animals and rodents we all get, the less grounded in reality any one is. While communing with the abstract ideas of God and truth and love are essential to all of us, they can't be all that we do.
Any more than the fantasies of TV, pop culture, politics, and social media - none of which means anything when your feet are literally one the ground which FYI is required to live a real life.
I love this land, the animals, and while I don't love the ticks or mice, I am finding a bit more appreciation for them right now - though I have no doubt it will pass.
Welcome to my Journey!
I'm inviting you to join me on my journey as I seek to find a new way of being in an old set of systems. It's hard, but worth it!